i am giving up. i am going to kill myself. i really just cant stand living. i cannot take it anymore! i'm going to attempt within a week, so this is incase it works. if anyone actually reads this, then i am going to write my suicide note.
Dear Family,
This was your fault. Dad- all of the abuse and the name calling stuck with me. i have always been afraid of you.i cannot stand livin in fear anymore. Mom- you cared too much about me, but not enough to actually pay attention. i was self harming, but you never noticed. Maggie- i hate you. you bother me. i hated being near you, put on some clothes. Kate- you are a piece of shit. you had a large part in this. i do not know the last time you said anything remotely nice to me. you are a huge self centered bitch. you think you were the only one who had problems in this family? you were fucking wrong. so fucking wrong. and i knew you were anorexic. now everyone else does.
Dear Friends,
In know way was this any of your's fault. i love you all. i was just having alot of problems with my family and myself. also if you ever thought it, or guessed. i was anorexic. but do not blame yourselves for anything. please do not. just because i killed myself doesnt mean you have too. please just stay alive.
everyone else,
I'm sorry. i could not take the pressure anymore. i just couldnt take it. if you ever think anyone might need help. tell someone or help them. it could save their life. obvisouly no one helped me, and now i'm dead.
sorry if this troubles anyone who might read this. but i just cant take it. maybe someone will see this and help me, but probably not. goodbye world(hopefully)
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