uhm yeah.

so ive eaten alot lately. its kinda gross. and all the people who sit near me at lunch yell at me because of my small bites haha. uhm this kid in my bio class has been chatting me lately telling me im cute and he would rather be seen with me than with my sister. and my sister is so skinny and pretty. everyone thinks she anorexic but she eats like a pig. she is so tiny though. like a twig. oh but the girl who sits next to me in french(who is a twig) told me im thin. and its awkward for me now because i saw on formspring that when she's older she wants to be a therapist for people with eating disorders which like worries me haha. hope she doesnt find out. uhm ive been getting smaller. my new clothes which are smalls, fit like my old clothes used to. and they were mediums. im so happy. but ive been getting cold alot. i had to keep my sweatshirt on all throught my dance classes this weekend. which usually they wont let people do but for me i guess they didnt care. oh and i want to do this whole thing for leo's dancewear were i could send stuff in to be a model, but i thought i couldnt cuz the leo i wore(which was kinda big) was a large adult, but i looked at one of my other leos that i wore today waas a small! and the brand i want to model for! now i just have to fill out the forms, take some pictures and hope for a callback. i'm so excited! but i'm still fat haha. soooo fat lol. its gross. i still really want to lose like 20 pounds. i barely have a gap inbetween my legs. at least i have one.